Editing Roxas's Diary

'''[[Roxas]]'s Diary''' appears in both ''[[Kingdom Hearts II]]'' and ''[[Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days]]'' as a journal chronicling his thoughts and adventures. In ''Kingdom Hearts II'', the journal changes throughout the day with only the present entry viewable, and it serves to point the player towards their next goal. In ''Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days'', it takes on the role that the Story section of [[Jiminy's Journal]] did in previous games, by keeping track of the plot throughout the game.

==''Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days''==

''It's been a week since I got here. Saïx told me to keep a diary, but he said nobody would check it. What am I supposed to write about?''<br>

''Today they told us to go to the Round Room, where we met our new member, No. XIV. Was I like that when I first got here? I think I was. But I don't remember too well.''

''Axel and I went to Twilight Town today. He taught me a lot.''<br>

''Before we RTC'd (Returned To the Castle) we swung by the clock tower and had some sea-salt ice cream. Axel called it the "icing on the cake" after a successful mission. Well, except there was no cake—just the ice cream.''<br>

''I don't know what to write in this thing!''

''The past few days, the other members have been showing me how to fight and do mission stuff. They also told me more about the Organization, and about myself.''<br>

''I still don't really get what a "heart" is. But apparently, it's a vital piece of who I am—so I've decided to cooperate. If I collect enough hearts, I can complete Kingdom Hearts. Then I'll be whole.''

''Me and Axel went on a mission to Twilight Town. Afterwards, we went and had ice cream again up on the clock tower.''<br>

''He said friends do stuff like that. Or they laugh together. So does that mean me and him are friends?''

''The other members have been teaching me more about how to fight and stuff. It's going, I guess.''<br>

''Every day after work, I've been meeting Axel at the clock tower to have sea-salt ice cream. It really is salty! But still sweet, too. How come it tastes so familiar?''

''Axel is going to some place called Castle Oblivion. He told me because we're friends.''<br>

''He had to go home early to get ready, and after he left I noticed the word WINNER on my ice cream stick. I wonder what I won... I'll ask him when I see him tomorrow.''

''Axel left before I woke up this morning. I never got to ask him about the ice cream stick.''<br>

''I was partnered up with No. XIV for today's mission. Xion wore a hood the whole time and wouldn't say a word to me. Come to think of it, I didn't have a whole lot to say, either.''<br>

''Afterwards I went and had ice cream by myself.''

''I teamed up with No. XIV again today. We finally talked a little—Xion even said my name for the first time.''<br>

''Afterwards I had ice cream by myself again. The lady at the shop said you can trade the WINNER stick for an extra bar. But I can't eat more than one.''

''Today was my third day with Xion. I've gotten to know a little more about her. That's right—she's a girl, with black hair, and she can use the Keyblade just like me!''<br>

''I took her out for ice cream afterwards, but I'm saving the WINNER stick. Axel deserves a reward when he gets back. Xion wants to have ice cream with us from now on. Maybe we'll be friends.''

===Day 26: After that...===

I only remember up until the middle of what happened today. I heard talk that the Organization members who went to [[Castle Oblivion]] were annihilated. [[Saïx]] was saying that [[Axel]] might have been annihilated too. [[Xigbar]], who I went on a mission with, told me that because [[Nobodies]] don't have hearts and don't truly exist, when they're annihilated nothing is left behind. I don't remember much after that. It seems I fainted somehow and fell asleep.

===Day 50: The shells [[Xion]] gave me===

I don't know what happened. It feels like I've been dreaming all this time. When I woke up, someone had placed shells beside my pillow. It looked like there were about as many shells as days I'd been sleeping. I didn't know who had left them there, but when I went to the top of the clock tower [[Xion]] gave me another shell. It looks like she was gathering them every day to leave by my pillow. When I put the shell up to my ear, I heard the sound of waves. It felt somehow familiar. I feel like the dreams I had while I was sleeping were also somehow familiar.  

I remember a white room with a [[Sora|guy wearing red clothes]] in it. He seemed about the same age as me. He was swallowed up by something white. After that, I remember a [[Kairi|girl]]'s voice... "I knew that I'd find you snoozing down here." I wonder what that means? It seemed a little like Xion's voice.

===Day 51: Annihilation===

It seems like the Organization members who went to [[Castle Oblivion]] really were all destroyed. Was [[Axel]] really annihilated? When I think about that, I get this weird feeling like something is blocking my throat. I went to eat ice-cream on top of the clock tower after my mission, but no-one else came.

===Day 52: Eating ice-cream alone===

I still feel this pain, as though something is stuck blocking my throat. I eat ice-cream alone after my missions. Not even [[Xion]] comes. Is [[Axel]] really not going to come back...?

Also, there's something that's been bothering me lately. In the time since I fainted, I've had this feeling like there's something inside my head. Not always, but sometimes... Even when I'm awake...It happens during missions...So, I don't think it's a dream. I wonder what they are, these images that sometimes flow into my head?

===Day 71: Axel returned===

When I'd finished my mission, [[Axel]] suddenly returned, and I didn't know what to do. So he wasn't annihilated? We went to the clock tower, ate ice-cream, and talked about [[Xion]]. The painful lump in my throat went away.

===Day 72: Ice-cream with Axel===

I went to [[Agrabah]] with [[Axel]]. I feel like Axel has changed a little since he came back from [[Castle Oblivion]]. After our mission, we ate ice-cream together. I wonder when the three of us - me, Axel and [[Xion]] -will be able to eat ice-cream together?

===Day 73: Xion isn't here===

I thought that the three of us could eat ice-cream together after our missions, so I looked for [[Xion]], but I couldn't find her. In fact, I think it's been about 10 days since I've seen her. It looks like [[Axel]] will ask [[Saïx]] about Xion for me. Today Axel didn't come to the clock tower either.

===Day 74: The three of us ate ice-cream===

Today, me and Axel's mission was to look for [[Xion]], who hadn't returned from her own mission. We found Xion, and finally the three of us ate ice-cream together, but it seems that Xion has become unable to use her [[Keyblade]]. We decided that [[Xion]] and I would go on missions together. Apparently when you're in trouble, your friends help you out.  

===Day 75 Best friends===

I went on a mission with Xion. Apparently the Genie we met in Agrabah is "best friends" with a guy called [[Aladdin|Al]]. I asked Axel what a best friend is, and he said they're "one rank above a friend". But Axel doesn't have any best friends, so he doesn't understand the idea very well. [[Axel]] knows everything, so I thought he'd know about best friends.  

Also, while I was on the mission in Agrabah I saw some kind of image in my head. The guy in the red clothes that I saw before...Has he been to [[Agrabah]] too?

===Day 94: [[Kingdom Hearts (world)|Kingdom Hearts]]===

We were summoned by [[Xemnas]]. I don't understand the things Xemnas says. Kingdom Hearts, which looks kind of like a moon, is floating in the night sky. I wonder what it means to 'gather hearts, make hearts our own, and not be deluded by hearts'? Axel told me that if we had hearts, we'd be able to understand all sorts of things. I really don't understand what a "heart" is.

===Day 95: Memories===

I went on a mission to [[Agrabah]] with [[Xion]]. I've gotten pretty used to going on missions with her. When we got back, we talked to [[Axel]] about some stuff to do with Organization members. It seems like the sort of Nobodies who become Organization members all have some memories of the time they were human. But Xion and I have no memories. I wonder what sort of guy I was when I was a human?

===Day 96: It's okay, now...===

I went on a mission to [[Beast's Castle]] with Xion. As a test, I gave my [[Keyblade]] to [[Xion]] and she could use it just fine. I had to [[Wooden Stick|fight without a Keyblade]] but we finished the mission without any problems. And after the mission, Xion was able to use her own Keyblade again. So everything's okay now. Afterwards, the three of us ate ice-cream.

===Day 97: That place...===

Every day after completing our missions, the three of us eat ice-cream together. We don't talk about anything really important while eating ice-cream, but whenever I finish a mission, I think, "I want to go to that place." I wonder if [[Axel]] and [[Xion]] think the same thing? I wonder what the other Organization members do after they finish their missions.

===Day 117: Special Nobodies...===

I went on a mission with [[Xigbar]]. Xion and [[Axel]] also went on a mission together. Xigbar told me that Xion and I are special Nobodies. I wonder if that's because we can use Keyblades? The mission was really long, so I couldn't go to the clock tower. I wonder if [[Xion]] and Axel went to eat ice-cream.

During my mission, I saw another image in my head. The same guy in red clothes appeared, as usual. These images...What could they be? Is it something to do with the fact that I'm a special [[Nobody]]? If it is, I wonder if Xion is seeing the same kind of images as me...

===Day 118: Holiday.===

 

 

 

 

 

===Day 150: Something you don't want to lose...===

 

Today [[Xion]] didn't come to the clock tower again. She spoke to [[Saïx]] about something, but I don't know what happened between them. When I talked to [[Axel]] about the thing the [[Beast]] didn't want to lose, he taught me that, "Your memories of the past create things you don't want to lose." I don't have any memory of when I was a human, but I don't want to forget the things that have happened since I joined the [[Organization XIII|Organization]]. Even just thinking about that makes me scared.

 

===Day 151: The difference between me and Xion===

 

 

===Day 152: I don't understand...===

 

Maybe [[Xion]] is angry with me about something. But I don't know why she would be angry. [[Axel]] told me that girls are difficult. I don't really understand what he means by that word, but apparently there are switches you shouldn't press when it comes to girls. Have I pressed the wrong switch somehow?

 

 

I've hardly seen Xion, and [[Axel]] seems busy. When I eat ice-cream it just tastes salty, and it gets all over my hands, and I don't know what to do. It's like I'm only eating ice-cream so that I can throw the stick in the rubbish bin at the station. I eat these ice-creams all the time, but I haven't seen another "winner". And this whole time, I haven't been able to ask [[Xion]] about the images that appear in my head during missions. It feels like there are a lot of areas where I don't know what I should do...

 

 

On my mission, [[Xaldin]] told me that the [[Beast]] has a special kind of power. It's a thing called 'the power of love'. I didn't understand at all, so I asked [[Axel]]. I didn't understand Axel's explanation either. He explained that if I had a heart I'd be able to understand, but I feel like I haven't been told the whole truth.

 

 

Xion failed a mission, came back, and fell asleep. I went to see her, but she really was fast asleep. I put a sea shell by her pillow, like she had done for me. I don't think Saïx likes Xion. I wonder why? Maybe [[Saïx]] knows something about [[Xion]] that the other Organization members don't.

 

During today's mission I saw another image in my head. As usual, the guy in red clothes was there. Has he been to [[Wonderland]] too? More importantly, just what are these images?

 

===Day 173: Xion's share===

 

While Xion is asleep, I thought I'd work extra hard to make up for her share. [[Axel]] told me he had talked to Saïx about Xion, but that he didn't learn anything. Instead, he made [[Saïx]] take back what he said, that "Xion is a failure." It'd be good if the situation improves when [[Xion]] wakes up.

 

 

[[Xion]] still hasn't woken up, and I'm still working hard to make up for her share. After missions, I just talk about pointless things with [[Axel]]. Then I come back to the castle, and go to put a sea shell beside Xion's pillow. If they can cheer Xion up just a little when she wakes up, I'll be happy.

 

When I was on my mission in [[Neverland]], I saw another image. And I felt like it wasn't the first time I'd been able to fly. Has the guy in the red clothes flown like I have?

 

 

Xion woke up. Today I went on a mission with Axel and Xion, but [[Xion]] fainted during the mission. It looks like she's not back to her full strength after all. Saïx said something cruel when we got back. It made me angry. Afterwards, I talked to [[Axel]] in Xion's room. Xion woke up. The three of us are best friends.

 

 

After finishing missions, I go to the usual place. Sometimes [[Axel]] or Xion is waiting, sometimes I wait for the other two. Recently we've been busy, so sometimes we can't all be there, but now even if we're separated I think things are okay. I wonder what Xion and Axel think? Oh, and I forgot to ask [[Xion]] whether she sees images in her head during missions...

 

As usual, I've been seeing the guy in red clothes in my head, but I still don't know who he is. I wonder if there's some sort of connection between us?

 

 

Xion's is acting a little strange. I wonder if she's unwell again. [[Axel]] said that next holiday, the three of us should go to the beach together. I think Axel's noticed Xion's strange behavior, too. Spending a holiday together would be good. I'm sure [[Xion]] will get better soon.

 

 

 

 

After my mission, I ate ice-cream with [[Axel]]. [[Xion]] didn't come. Axel told me that she couldn't come because she has an important mission, but Axel was acting a little strangely. I haven't been able to think about anything except Xion's strange behaviour, but now that I do think about it I feel like Axel's behavior has been strange this whole time, too.

 

 

 

 

I really want to talk to [[Axel]] about [[Xion]], but I haven't been able to see him. I don't know what I should do. Could it be that Axel has been avoiding me...?

 

 

I don't remember today's mission. I just remember going to the beach. But I don't know if I really went to the beach or not. [[Axel]] promised me that tomorrow we'll start looking for [[Xion]].

 

 

 

===Day 297: Who is he?===

 

We went to look for [[Xion]] in [[Castle Oblivion]], but I don't remember anything about the Castle. According to Axel, I fainted as soon as I entered the Castle. When I woke up I was in [[Twilight Town]]. There, we found Xion. Xion was with a guy who was wearing an [[Black Cloak|Organization Coat]], but wasn't one of our group. Why? Who is that guy?

 

 

Axel suddenly attacked Xion. Surely there must have been some other way...There's something strange about [[Xion]], but there's something strange about [[Axel]] too. I don't know what the two of them are thinking.

 

 

 

 

For the first time in a long time, the three of us ate ice-cream together after our missions. But I didn't know what to talk about. Before I had so many things to talk about, but now I don't know what I should say.

 

So many things have been happening lately that I've forgotten to write about the images. Recently, I've been seeing them even when I'm not on missions. And compared to before, I feel like the number has been increasing. Sometimes, they even come during dreams. A while ago [[Xion]] said she had been dreaming, I wonder if there's some kind of connection?

 

===Day 301: I had a dream...===

 

Recently, I've been dreaming a lot. Because of that, I feel like I haven't been sleeping much. I'm really tired every day.

When I go to the clock tower, [[Axel]] and [[Xion]] don't come. I feel like if I could talk to the two of them, I'd stop dreaming and be able to sleep, but they aren't around.

===Day 321: My body's condition...===

My body feels heavy somehow. I didn't understand the dream I had today. So I've been feeling very confused. I don't know why water was coming out of my eyes. What was that? Even now I still don't understand. Today I went on a mission with Xion. Unlike me, [[Xion]] acted like her body was very light. When we came back, we had ice-cream together for the first time in ages.

===Day 322: Another dream...===

I had another dream. My head feels heavy. I want to eat ice-cream with [[Xion]] and [[Axel]] again.

===Day 352: The sunset we watched together...===

The three of us ate ice-cream together. The sunset was beautiful. I'll never forget today.

===Day 353: I can't trust him...===

[[Axel]] let Xion escape. [[Xion]] is a doll? A mirror to reflect me? I don't understand what Axel told me. I can't trust Axel.

===Day 354: What am I?===

I don't know what the Organization is thinking. I don't know what [[Axel]] is thinking, either. But what I don't understand, most of all, is why I obey this Organisation. Xion and I are special [[Nobodies]], living through our connection to "Sora". If [[Xion]] is a doll, then, what about me? Just what am I?

===Day 355: I...===

 

===Day 357: Three of us, again...===

 

If I release [[Kingdom Hearts (world)|Kingdom Hearts]], and go to find "[[Sora]]", I'm sure [[Xion]] will come back to us. Then, the three of us will be able to eat ice-cream together again.

 

==''Kingdom Hearts II''==